ΦΔΘ (Potential Fuck You)

I've gotten terribly behind on blogs. I still have things from May I wanna talk about, ranging up to current days, to short stories, to novels. But this one is fresh on my mind and it really fucking pisses me off.

So I've missed a few classes here recently, and the fraternity is breathing down my neck about it. I had two guys on E.C. talk to me about this today; Trent and Darrel. Trent comes off as less than legitimate to me sometimes; he told me that he was on gonna be on my side and support me when this meeting comes up tomorrow to discuss what's been going on. Darrel DOES support me and I believe and trust him 100%.

So this is what I've gotta say; yeah, I've been sick / had some bullshit happen. But if you're gonna treat me like a fucking number and a liability, I've lost all respect for the majority of people running this place. You don't look at me like a brother; I'm just another guy to either help/hinder the place. Where the fuck were all of you that one semester when I DID hit rock bottom? Not treating me like a brother, but just as another number, that's for damn sure. Where have you been now? Yeah, that's what I thought. "Friendship, sound learning, moral rectitude," indeed.

Don't get me wrong, a majority of the guys are absolutely fucking awesome. They realize what's going on with me as well and hold me in high esteem; the problem is the people who care more about looking good than brotherhood.

"punishments" are gonna range from either "someone helping me to be accountable" (I've been FUCKING SICK, with fever and all, there's no "accountability" there), to giving me a roommate (...that isn't gonna do shit), to kicking me out. Kick me out and you lose my respect. I'm getting alumni status in December, assuming all goes well. Come on dipshits, give me a little credit.

Uggh. Maybe I really SHOULD'VE went elsewhere.