I’ve Decided I Won’t Come Back Here.

(Previously private post)

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I can't bring myself to do it, its a question of where I want to be versus where I was. Which place will I hate myself less at? It sucks. It hurts. But I have to say goodbye. And I don't even want to tell anyone. Maybe I won't, I doubt it'd even be missed. We'll see how it goes though.

I want it to be goodbye. But at the same time, I'm terrified of it. Leaving it al behind, will I really hate myself less? I don't know. I really don't. And what if I do come back here after all?

Am I going to grow more, or just feel worse by leaving this place behind? I'm scared and don't know what to do.