Say goodbye, say goodbye, yeah i’ll live forever

A little over three weeks.

*sigh*

Life's been good except for a small handful of glaring problems. They haven't been enough to get me down. I've been pretty happy in life actually, except for the lack of sleep. I have a tolerance to my sleeping medication, so no more passing out right away. it keeps me asleep once i'm out, but i have a hard time falling asleep.

To pass the time I've been writing a novel while waiting for said med to kick in -- my mind gets really hazy still and all of that fun stuff. I've only written in this book while dazed, and i've only been listening to Coheed and Cambria. So...yeah, it's weird stuff. It's mostly just ranted about how humanity is a plague.... O.o

Maybe I should also take the time to mention that I'm feeling generally happy in life and more importantly, I'm feeling that way without medication.

I've been of all of my anti-depressants for about two solid weeks now. I haven't drank since Saturday. The only people I shared this with before now were Robin and Tess.

I don't know why I'm writing really, I don't really feel down or anything, I guess I just want to get a few things out there.

Life has picked up more. I'll have a job at the Johnson County parks dept. here soon, and I'll be staying in Franklin during the summer. I hate this place, I think, but I hate Greensburg more, so its a fair trade. I"ll be living at the house. My mom isn't too keen on this idea though....

I've been through a lot of shit with Victoria lately. I see so much of my past in her, it scares me. She frustrates me, pisses me off, and I wonder if I was this bad in years past. I want to help her, but she won't help herself. Did everyone feel this aggravated by me? I don't think I was as bad as she is now, but still.... God, if I put that on anyone, I can't apologize enough.

I miss Courtney a lot. I haven't talked to her in a little over two weeks. I emailed her a few days ago with this: "Are we ever going to talk again?"

I didn't get a reply, which in and of itself is an answer I suppose. I want to say something, anything, but I guess the lack of response speaks for itself.

I finally registered for classes a few hours ago. Hooray for me and deciding to come back. I have to take care of some financial aid business tomorrow, but after that I should be back on track for school next semester.

I've been playing a lot of mtg and gh lately. and losing at them both. its still fun though, for the most part. yay.

looks life i've ran out of things to say right now. hooray for abrupt endings.

pull the trigger / and the nightmare stops